So this is not an easy job. It takes a lot. This morning as I was getting ready, I was not looking forward to today. I have phone calls to make. *yikes*.
I've been struggling with motivation because doors seem to be closing all around me and it's difficult, you know, when no one is answering or calling back and when one of the two appointments made is canceled. It's rough to keep the calls going. Well as I was dreading more of it and praying in the car this morning, the Lord reminded me that this is HIS work and it is HIS responsibility to make something of it. If he doesn't, than anything I do is worthless. But if he DOES make something of it, than no matter how worthless it seems, it's NOT because it is the Lord's work. And I'm not doing it for my boss, my professors, the pastors, or myself. I'm doing this work for the Lord and so who have I to fear? No one, that's who. Because the Lord of the Universe is on my side!
Have you ever ridden a train? Well on some trains (I don't know about all), you get the ticket once you get on the train. I've found that God works like this a lot. I've got to get on the train (dial the phone number or make the drive) and then I'll get the ticket (the strength I need from the Lord). That's the way it works. I don't get all the strength I need for the whole summer in one big lump sum at the beginning. This is not Sam's Club, I cannot buy all the bread I need for a year at once and freeze it all and get it as I need it. No, this is more like manna, if I try and get some for tomorrow, it'll be rotten. It's good for today. And that's the good part of how God works, it keeps me depending on Him for all I need.
I've found that if I neglect reading Scripture on my own, the day is significantly worse than if I had. If I neglect prayer and focus on the Lord in the morning, I get almost nothing done all day.
I can feel the strength refueling me as I get groggy in the afternoon heat and as I gear up to make phone calls I don't want to make.
Depending on the Lord each day. If that's the end result of the whole summer, it'll be worth it.
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I'm just now getting to catch up on everyone's blogs. I just want to let you know, I am praying for you. God is bigger than anything we will face. He was before us, He will be after us, and always He will be with us. God bless. I am glad this summer is difficult for you. It is the difficult times in life that we come out the most changed.
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